I wish I was good

Things have gone bad lately.
I screwed up everything
that I've done sincerely.

I made myself a loser-
the idiot I never seen in me.
I made my mother cry-
countless sins on my shoulder.

I made my feelings drown-
in my own weaknesses.
I made people around me
feel like they're bothered.

I made my heart torn apart-
for reasons I hope would die.
I made my eyes cry-
for something I long.

I made my mind close-
from thinking wisely.
I made my dreams stop-
for a better reality.

What have I done?
I'm so sorry for being such
a burden to everyone I care.

I can't help these feelings anymore.
I'm screwed up, spiritless-
I'm sorry.